Rough Day

I am writing this post two days later as it took a lot of reflection to decide what to write.  It was really the first hard, frustrating day we have experienced since coming to Ukraine.  We had a kid with a bad attitude, a bed-wetting incident in the middle of the night before (that cleaned up beautifully leaving no stain or odor on the bed – praise God) a child who felt homesick, feelings of pressure with being a bit behind in school, etc.  Our capacity to deal with it all was at a low and it took us a while to figure out the real underlying problem.  It was spiritual in nature, as we had allowed ourselves to become depleted and we had nothing left to give.

Once we realized this, we humbled ourselves and confessed our own failings to our Lord and to our kids.  We asked our loving God and our loyal kids for forgiveness.  We started the next morning anew with devotions and a good amount of prayer to start our day off on the right foot.  We immediately felt differently after this precious family time with our God.  I am so thankful that God called us to the throne to sort this out before receiving our wonderful news later that day.  If we had been clinging to our own bad attitudes at that point, it would have robbed us of the joy of our great news AND we would have been feeling guilty and undeserving instead of joyful and thankful.  God is so good, even when we aren’t.

I certainly didn’t want to post a list of complaints, but I don’t want to hide our struggles either.  Our first realization was that the novelty of living in Ukraine has worn off and life here is a lot tougher than life at home with all our conveniences and freedoms that we enjoy so much.  We are tired of our bed here that hurts our backs.  We miss our own bed a lot.  We are tired of hauling groceries home by hand every other day.  We miss jumping in our own vehicles and DRIVING ourselves to the store to get whatever we need whenever we want to.  We are growing weary of keeping up with the pace of everything here and not being able to run around and just enjoy being in Europe!  We would love to just take the weekend off and have vacation again like we did when we first arrived.  So we are trying to find some balance in spending time doing the things we need to do (laundry, dishes, schooling, work for Bruce, etc.) and do some of the things that we so desperately desire to do (go shopping for FUN, see some more sights, take more pictures, go to a museum, etc.)  It is hard to be responsible AND have some fun.  We both lean way to the responsible side, so have trouble giving in to the fun people we can be!  We know it’s important to have fun with the kids and create some really fun memories, but we don’t want everyone to be behind in school when we get back home.

We would appreciate your prayers during our last 10 days in Ukraine to find the sweet spot between discipline and wild abandon.  Thank you for loving us and cheering us on toward the finish line!


2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. The McEacherns
    Apr 18, 2011 @ 06:10:22

    I once asked a Ukrainian wife and mother what she likes to do in her free time. She looked at me like I was crazy. Everything takes longer here: laundry, cooking, shopping, cleaning, etc. I know I feel it, and I can only imagine how it is for you with four kiddos! Your court date is coming soon though, and God will sustain you!


    • motorcyclemama5
      Apr 18, 2011 @ 16:31:03

      Ha! Yeah… I’ve always been very appreciative of the work my washer and dryer (and dishwasher) do for me each day, but when I get home, my dryer is going to get a big kiss! I miss it very much. I cannot imagine spending all this time and energy dragging groceries home all the time! I really miss my van too! I think even if we left with grateful hearts, we will return with hearts that are even more grateful. : )


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